mi papa.

"The picture was taken about 3-4 years ago, i kindda forget.."

It's difficult to express how I feel about my father.
I can really hate him sometimes for being so identical with me.
We were born under the same star sign, which could really explain our similarity.
I even able to presume, what is he going to do under some conditions.
All I have to do is thinking, what am I going to do in that same conditions.

But there's also time when I really miss him.
Times when I started to think, what have I done to make him proud of me?
I know, he had always done his best. I know.

The thought of losing him, make me shed my tears of sorrow.
Wondering what is it gonna be without him around me.
Who else gonna calm me down, when everything around me just splitting?
Who's gonna fix the toilet lamp, when it's, all in the sudden, broken?

My worst thought is, what if today is my last day to see you?
Having you sit next to me, while we're watching your favorite TV show?
Thousands 'what if' strike to my mind.
And it's hurting to know, maybe you wish I can be a better daughter.

Trust me, Pa, I always try.
Not in the best way, I know.. My ego still control the biggest part of me.

I want you to know Pa, I am proud to be your daughter.
I love you more than anything i could describe in this mighty world.
Even if we spent the rest of our life, having our stupid little fight.

PS : Dear Ma and Pa, I promise you guys I will always try to do my best so that anytime soon you can feel it too, the way I feel about having you guys in my life, proud. I could never describe how much I love you guys, but i bet you know it already.

LOVE
Your daughter, Oya.